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2010-06-02T11:22:00.001+08:00

Forever after

With mama and Riyan :)

2010-05-28T11:20:00.014+08:00

Let's rock the weekends

Helluva time with family ♥

2010-05-26T11:17:00.001+08:00

When somebody offers you to buy a jug, what'll be your reply?

Well, I didn't have a solid plan that day but was making my way to Clarke Quay the next moment I know, I already joined the queue at Attica for the free shots. Like usual after that will proceed to Rebel and Zirca which kinda happening if I recalled properly. Lucky me to be home safely, freshened up and on my bed after my big breakfast!

2010-05-23T04:41:00.002+08:00

Everyday I wake up and it's Sunday

The baby shower was a great one with all the cousins around. These are some pictures from the event, lazy much to upload!

Went for an evening kite flying at Westwood.

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♥ Happy birthday, Aishah Salim ♥

2010-05-22T04:40:00.001+08:00

The old believe everything, the middle-aged suspect everything, the young know everything

Mini surprise from Ad and me.

Blindfolded the birthday girl

Siloso Beach Resort

Happy birthday to you

We witnessed 'Would you be my girlfriend' from Ian Wally to Shashameow.

Gazillion of fun!

2010-05-20T04:40:00.000+08:00

Like a get together session, like those were the days

Shasha's advanced at Costa Sands, Downtown East.

2010-05-17T01:07:00.000+08:00

Mr Eagle fly up high

2010-05-12T03:36:00.002+08:00

Caterpillar calls the end of the world the master calls a butterfly

These girls have rock my world during school days and I swear I miss them so much. I’m glad that I make my time to meet them today even if it’s only for a while.

Later then I make my way to meet the usuals for the so called our 'Last party session' (Macam faham only) but really, I'm cutting down on all this soon, for real. Because I don't fancy how others judge me as a cluber or as a party animal, me don't like.

Have I told you that Attica is superb, my god! Seriously Rebel and Zirca is getting boring each week also such an ass for not letting the regulars to enter 'Sorry our management refuse your entry' (Kakak kau punye yek bodoh okay!)

Party ended at 3.30am for us due to some mishaps.

And we were horribly behaving like a monkey in the cab, oh I had a sleepover at Ad's.

2010-05-10T21:00:00.002+08:00

Wanna dress up as superheroes and fight crime on street?

Movie date with my dear Sera ♥

One word for Kick Ass: Sucks!

2010-05-09T20:58:00.001+08:00

Dear Rukiah Senin,

I'll take this very special moment to wish you Happy mother's day.

I only have one mum, one mummy,
One mother in this world, one life.
I don't wait till tomorrow to express my feelings because

I hope that you've known all along, how very much you are loved and appreciated.

2010-05-08T20:56:00.001+08:00

Summer breeze

Feel so long?

I'm so happy that we finally had a proper meet up ♥

Can't recall when was the last time we actually meet up, sit and talk to each other. It saddens me that everyone's busy with their own life right now.

Nevertheless, that day was a good catch up and I hope there are more to come in the future, hopefully.

Happy days :)

2010-05-05T20:44:00.001+08:00

Beat of the drum, gotta give it that bass

Black is the new sex ♥

2010-05-03T17:57:00.000+08:00

Mostly sweet with a few nuts

Both parents are on leave, brother is not schooling which means another family day ♥

My monday wasn't blues at all because my family is there to keep me company. Can anyone recall when was the last time I watch a movie in the cinema? Tsk! Definitely a long time ago. So when mama actually offered us for a movie, I've no hesitation but to say yes right away.

No regrets watching Iron man II with nachos and popcorns to go along but guess what? Papa and mama fall asleep in the middle of the show. Hmpf! After which my throat was craving for Ban mian. Of course, I'll always fulfill my wish. Lunch was making my stomach bloated on top of that we then decided to walk around to shop.

Last stop, Ya kun kaya toast, the new hang out place with the family. The three of them were enjoying the smelly coffee, me hates coffee for sure -.- And finally home, was enduring those heavy eyes of mine.

2010-05-02T15:06:00.000+08:00

No reason to be jealous

Before exploring the new Helix bridge, we head down to a few places to run some errands. Scorching hot, the weather is creating waterfall down my back. Gosh! Look just fine in the picture but actual fact the family is down with fever. See, that's my family even when we're sick, we still have time for each other - Makes me love them more ♥

2010-05-01T05:38:00.011+08:00

End my days inside the train either falling asleep or whining

I guess I lost touch of who I am and where I came from. I lost myself, along the way. And I'm going back to getting me back. I laid in bed asking myself, where do I begin? How do I start? I guess, I'll start by praying. No uh, I won't turn into some horendous preacher, I'll just be me. I'll let some things slip but at the same time, I won't run wild all the way.

Recently agenda in my life is in beautiful mess. Not living in denial, everything is complicated now but I’m living with it willingly. Every breath that I take in, I thank Allah for giving me another chance to lead the next day even better.

With mix emotions all day long, I mean everyday. Nobody understands what I’m feeling not even myself. Confused much! Tried to search for possibilities, nothing came along with it. At present, luck is all I hope for, whether is good or bad I’ll sure accept for what it is.

Bless with nice people around me especially my family and babygirls. These lovelies never fail to make me smile be it in any situations. Sometimes I felt I’m in a very big debt with their kindness, I never learn how to pay them back but I’ll treasured them for life, that’s very sincere of me.

Let’s start with my new enemy, insomnia. Time has change and I’m adapting with unhealthy lifestyle. Sleepless nights at the count of my finger tips, it’s not a good one (I know right). I hate to admit this, sleeping only at 6 or 7 everyday and waking up at 1 in the afternoon; it’s not sufficient for me. I expect to have a proper sleeping timing by the end of this month.

On the other hand, it’s been 2 solid months passed since I’ve graduated from school, not to worry I’m still jobless because mum constantly reminded me that I can only start work in June. How cool is that? Very! Then again money is an issue: Adult fare is super killing me, nicotine is running low, no more shopping and here’s the best part of all, to have a 10 dollar note in my purse, that’s a bonus. Very rarely of me running out of cash, this time round I’m ashamed to ask kaching from mum, for real. I don’t see why I should depend on her as I’m no more a school kid, I’ve got to survive with the circumstances. When can I be rich?

Next, the usual meet ups are not happening anymore, I’ve to agree that we girls nowadays meet up only for parties, much of like a party animal. Besides that, I’ll just rot at home and when weekends come, my time is fully devoted to the family. Tell me about it? New hang out place, not! Getting drunk all week, body full of alcohol and behaving like a whore. You people must think that I’m out of my mind! Well, don’t be surprise, I still know my limits to every single thing that I do – I am me and still the old me. To tell the truth, I would love to put a close or at lease a pause to all this.

No doubt, I’m still traumatized with the incident ensued. Hiding is not the best, solving is the solution to every obstacle; mistakes are not to be repeated. Move on for the reason that I’m still hanging in the same spot. Easier said than done, I’m going through the pains, I swear the heartache has turn out to be numb.

Basically, that's the routine of my life, for now. Will be fixing the puzzles soon, real soon ♥

2010-04-28T03:48:00.002+08:00

Nuradawiyah Noordin party decent, say what?

I love my Sweet-sweet honey manje, Nuradawiyah Noordin :)

Only me, you and the dancefloor ♥

2010-04-25T02:38:00.001+08:00

Broken pieces

I've copy and paste this song lyrics from Mr M.F's song

I’m not sure what’s going on
I’m not sure what you’re going for
But I’m sure I’m not your type
Then somehow, we can never be as one

Why did you do it
Breaking my heart into pieces
Making me feel like an idiot
Just remembering, all your kisses

Here listen here honey
This is for you
I’m not after your money
I just want you
Cause we vanish all you seek for
Hurting me inside outside
What I want is more
I want your caring side

How long am I gonna wait
Going through all this pain
All by myself
What do I gain
Forgive me all this while
For what I’ve done
I’ve got the nerve
To tell that you’re the one
That I love

I wish you success
I wish you good luck
I wish you happy by his side
While I’m in a mess
And I should thank you
For giving me a chance
To let me know you
These broken pieces are for you

Here listen here honey
This is for you
I’m not after your money
I just want you
Cause we vanish all you seek for
Hurting me inside outside
What I want is more
I want your caring side

♥

2010-04-24T01:11:00.000+08:00

When you take twice the clothes and half the money you need

Bid goodbye to Fazlinah Dalik ♥ - Enjoy Bali endlessly, have a safe trip.

2010-04-22T00:28:00.002+08:00

The woman I respect most

Happy birthday, grandma ♥

2010-04-21T01:57:00.001+08:00

You're only bad when you're caught so that makes me a good girl, right?

2010-04-19T01:55:00.002+08:00

Doing all the little tricky things it takes to grow up

Happy birthday, Caah ♥

2010-04-18T01:56:00.001+08:00

Ahead

Advance surprise.

2010-04-13T01:55:00.003+08:00

Red dot

Your fourth time to Japan right Bik Ana? What a waste, she offered me too but I rejected. Stupid kan aku, aku know that - Don't have to remind me again and again! Gerams la sangat-sangat. Nevertheless have a smooth flight tonight, it's a stormy weather.

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To Mr M.F: I hate you for this date.

2010-04-10T01:53:00.003+08:00

Going through obstacles that others don't

Happy birthday, uncle :)

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To Mr M.S: I hate you for this date.

2010-04-09T01:53:00.004+08:00

The sun, the sand and the sea

We head start the day by having the food that I cooked as our breakfast before we swim. Apparently Sentosa changed alot like alot. When was the last time? Me can't remember. But sure Sentosa's looking great.

Grr! Weather was just not on our side today, we had to shift a few times for shelter. Didn't enjoy the sea for some reason or two plus the fact that the life guard actually reminded us of the jellyfish.

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There was a cute boy at Imbiah station - Tell me about it, I so can't forget his face.

P.S: When can we meet again?

2010-04-07T01:52:00.001+08:00

Thought when sober, said when drunk

No hangovers :) Two thumbs up for me! It wasn't a solid plan, last minute much.

2010-04-06T01:51:00.000+08:00

It's a bitching affair

2010-04-02T01:31:00.010+08:00

Great escape

Pulau Hantu.

Another family bonding :)

Quality time together :)

The reason why I love my family ♥

And granny left for Cameron highland, have a safe one :)

2010-03-31T00:58:00.003+08:00

Prettiest dresses are worn to be taken off

Even to my best of my ability, I did try my very best to take good care of myself. The word is "fun". Enjoying my life, I don't care what others have to say as long I know my limits.

Thank you lovelies for being there, much love.

2010-03-30T01:30:00.003+08:00

Highlights

Seriously, lately I don't even have time for myself. This is just a little about Genting and KL. Loads of fun and experience there. Promise you lovelies that I'll have a proper update soon I find the prefect time.

2010-03-29T05:24:00.000+08:00

You're the light when we lose hope

Happy birthday, mama ♥

2010-03-24T05:11:00.001+08:00

Short while

Hello Genting, KL

Goodbye Singapore

2010-03-20T02:00:00.003+08:00

When nothing goes right, go left

The day's initially was rather mundane. But I thought it was worthwhile because I spent so much time having fun with the loves. I had difficulties on what to wear, finally grab something out of the wardrobe and off to Town with babygirl Nuradawiyah. The meet up was fine not until someone actually regconise me – Back to last’s week party, I don’t remember dancing with my ex Bishan school mate. Ad was like “Eh b, your Bishan friend la!” This happened at Far East, Cahaya – Hilang nafsu makan aku! You never know how much I wanted to avoid Town after that incident – Mabok Sibok!

Put that aside, we were panting and sweating walking the whole area only to taste the yogurt at Tangs – Thanks to Devyaah who doesn’t eat MacDonalds as quote by her “It’s not worth my money” Cool shit la you. And so she decided shopping would be the best idea for the day – Ad and I make a little make over session for her, at the end of the day, what’s important, she looks gorgeous.

Came Raida and boyfriend for dinner, had a great talk. Catched the last train home after ages. Feels so weird however I choose to ignore. Who cares anyway! For all I know, I’m home safe and sound with the family here.

Another situation, I was stunt to find out this. Guards feeling! It was playing with me, the heart just won’t stop beating and fingers crossed hoping not to see anyone familiar. Pheww! I didn’t bump into anyone. Just make a wild research, since I'm here at home to Mr M.F’s facebook – Pictures speaks thousand words, he was there the same spot where I was too! Grr!

2010-03-17T01:55:00.001+08:00

Raise the room temperature

Party celebration specially for Fazlinah Dalik.

2010-03-16T07:02:00.002+08:00

Is an issue of mind over matter

♥ Happy birthday, Fazlinah Dalik ♥

2010-03-15T04:28:00.001+08:00

Half a hundred

Happy birthday, Papa :)

2010-03-13T05:08:00.003+08:00

Because it's the closest thing

To MR M.F:

Wonderful day it's a bright Saturday, woke up with a smile on my face smelt my stinky self. So I went to the hall and watched cartoons to fully awaken me. I was feeling uneasy the whole day but to waste my Saturday to be a sleeping beauty. Oh but before that I get my fringe cut away – Short and ugly.

That night, the breeze was strong. Had nothing much to do and was online the entire time till this primary school mate of mine chatted with me on Facebook and decided to meet up. I was touch though that he actually paid his cab fare just to come to my area. Another part of the story shall remain between me and you. In fact, this may be due to my looking back that now unexpected always happens, guiltiness is overshadowing.

2010-03-10T15:26:00.006+08:00

Don't worry about the people from your past, there's a reason they didn't make it to your future

This date marks that I’ve officially graduated from ITE Bishan College Central. Three years in ITE come to an end with pronto - Happy Graduation People!

Hangover leads to a major mistake.

No doubt, I’m having fun with the girls, partying the night away just make the world spin right round. Too much fun that it ponder upon me why do I still meet people from the past? Saw my ex at Zirca, most of the time I didn’t bother to look who was around me but this little girl, Raida had to just open her mouth and voice out to him, so cute la she plus the she was into this thing called “Whiskey Dry” – Pecah! Raida's sister, Rin and Najib ended party by 3 in the morning, Grr! So boring la which only left with the few of us.

To Mr M.S:

If we knew the past was appalling we should be better then. Continue about the ex, sometimes it’s good not to meet them again but yes, I do miss him for some reasons. Partly, glad he took good care of me on that day; I was really drunk not knowing my surroundings well. Another part of the story shall remain between me and you. In fact, this may be due to my looking back that now unexpected always happens, guiltiness is overshadowing.

Will see Rebel and Zirca again in a weeks time :)

2010-03-08T03:18:00.007+08:00

When spelled backwards, Stressed is dessertS

Do you turn to desserts when you are stressed?

Counting down the seconds to end school, I'm left with 2 more days, exam period!

I wish that my life was simply dessert all of the time. How about you? Yes, life would be grand in my book if it were 24/7 desserts instead of stress! Life just isn't that way though and I admit that more often than not, I'm terrible at dealing with stress - I think that I hide it semi well.

Described my life in the last year or so as having my hands in too many cookie jars. Trying to do many things, but knowing that I'm doing too little in too many places. Not doing anything to the best of my ability because I feel spread thin. I've done it to myself. I need to scale down. I need to realize that even though I want to help everyone around me, even though I want to jump in the car and drive hours to help my family or friends, sometimes I just can't do these things. But, I seem to still do them anyway.

When I'm super stressed out I tend to seclude myself and crawl inside my shell. I tend to eat less and drink more redbull. I also eat more sugar and stop exercising. Yes, all terrible things in general and worse for you when you are feeling stressed.

I need to find a new way of dealing with stress and instead of cutting myself off from the rest of the world, I should reach out a bit. The words of other people can soothe you in a time of need. They can bring comfort. I tend to overlook those aspects and think to myself, "What I'm dealing with is really not that bad compared to what so many other people are dealing with and going through, so I should just keep my mouth shut and drive on."

The people around me can sense my stress though. I try to hide it, but I know that I really don't hide it well. But I try. Sure, I can help other people deal with their stress, but I can't seem to help myself very much.

The moral of my story is that I have apparently not come to a place in my life where I really have things under control. Sure, it looks good from the outside, but in reality I want to do it all and be everything for everyone. But I can't. That is a disappointing thought for me to swallow, truly. But it is my reality.

2010-03-06T22:46:00.002+08:00

Only as old as you act

Happy birthday, Diana ♥

My condolences to Ric's family - Raida be strong and stay by your boyfriend's side.

2010-03-05T13:59:00.013+08:00

Needs a puff

On a lighter note: 9 years and counting, our friendship still going strong babes – Me, Sera and Raida in the picture below respectively. Plan was to watch movies but too bad time wasn’t on our side, by the time we wanted to pay for the tickets it was all the front rows left but we had no choice to head for another sketch. Alice in Wonderland, what do you expect, new realease, everything was fully booked by then we already delayed half on our time due to some things. Impromptu plan quite goes well; I guess. Some mishaps might happened nonetheless the night out really worth my clock ticking. Everyone agreed on Sheesha, wah tell you, the puff was nice, so long since I last step my feet on Haji lane's path, nothing much change.

Note to self: Procrastinate now, don't put it off. Exams in a few more days equals to graduation.

Married couple. Raida, when's our turn? The couple when shopping and got themselves this simple Polo-T, cute right?

2010-03-03T03:20:00.010+08:00

Staggered day

For almost two years

Sandwich making cum farewell party for class ISN :(

Cousin's day out

It was superbly last minute plan upon watching movie. Too late? Nah, Nad and I still go on and purchase the ticket without hesitation although Khan doesn’t wants to follow us because he said it wasn't worth his 6 bucks - Okay lor! So it's a sweet treat for myself to de-stress my mind. Glad that we actually had this movie date today instead of Monday since it'll be a little too rush for you, cousin. And today, I appreciate your time for spending it with me - Precious.

When we sway

Powerhouse, swag the stress.

Was holding on to the temptation of partying and suddenly, I blurted out “Let’s have some fun tonight” despite exams are just next week for two subject, to my surprise none that I know off. Hitting Powerhouse after midnight it’s a bad idea, the queue was terrible.

Now, let me have plenty of rest.

2010-03-01T03:54:00.000+08:00

Awaiting month have arrived

Undoubtedly, my daily life is getting more and more exciting eventhough I haven’t been getting out much. Than yesterday was the last day of February so today I woke up with a smile because it’s the first day of March, the time that been waiting for, relatively an eventful month. Looking forward to the entire plans that I’ve diagram in my calendar. First up, after 2 years of Higher Nitec, I’m finally graduating soon in 9 more days, sad to say that I extremely will miss my dear classmates. Upon graduation, party plans are second in my file including some random outings. The most overwhelming part is of course my holiday trip at the end of the month, me is can’t be patient for that la!

2010-02-26T16:51:00.002+08:00

Growing up is optional

Happy birthday, Riyan :)

2010-02-20T23:13:00.006+08:00

The ring exchanged

On this special day I'll like to congratulate my dear cousin, Diana. That moment was a flourishing one.

Best wishes to you both on your engagement.

2010-02-18T02:35:00.003+08:00

Nothing beats family

Being a long weekend gives families an opportunity to go out and have the sense of touch for one another. Now that matters concerning home and family can go more smoothly. I may be feeling the need and courage to break free of other limiting situations and cultivate my independence. Don't fall into the trap of resenting those who may try and discourage me; the only thing standing in my way is the unwillingness to take risks. Therefore my family stands before me.

When you’re in need only the family will be there, trust me.

Saturday

Glad that I've got the chance to meet Faz after a long time even for a short while, it was value almost precise time. Okay before that, then when I was awake, mama’s ayam penyet was already served on the table for lunch. So I had to take a long hot showered ahead of stuffing those foods in my stomach. Followed by the egg sandwich making for picnic cum relaxing together with the cousin. I used to be like all the other kids to hang out at Town on a Saturday night but now West Coast will be a good spot with the kites fly high, so high.

Sunday

Perhaps it worth the penny for a Chinese New Year to ride on the flyers. Waiting for our turn in a long queue was a surprise because most were Chinese and I thought it was celebration time for them but no. To be reminded again, three eventful occasions covers for today’s date which are the Chinese New Year, Valentine’s day and the opening ceremony of The Casino. Back to the subject, wow and I tell you Singapore flyer’s workers especially the Malay dudes were utterly handsome - hotness. A boring ride but full of memorable moments. We then proceed to East Coast to meet the two love birds, Bik Ana and Uncle for dinner.

Monday – Tuesday

Who’s up for camping? We are! At Changi, the wind was strong; the tent took half an hour to pitch. Imagine two tents for an hour was a disaster. Enough food to survive for two days, radio on at the maximum volume, light sticks prepared for the darkness. With the sound of the sea, that makes everyone only sleeps at 5 in the morning and wake up in the next two hours for a noodle cup maggi breakfast plus the desire for Mee Soto was strong at lunch, head to Changi Village to please our cravings and home sweet home. Really, quality time.

Wednesday

The parents applied for half day leave and full day for tomorrow. Helping mum in the kitchen makes me feel so lock to her, shared most things with her, guess she believe that her 20 year old daughter has grown enough to understand and accept things better, well you taught me through the tough times. While dad and his son (moron brother) was busy fixing the guitar, tuning in the notes, which I totally don't want to take note of. Menu’s for today, western delights – Fish and Chips and Chicken cutlet. That will actually gain another extra fat with the laughter over dinner.

Thursday

I’m a happy girl. Thank you mama and papa for your support till up to date, even Riyan do plays his part not forgetting my granny plus the two love birds. They are my pillar of strength which encourage me every now and then, doesn’t even matter date or time, the family will be by my side even it risk their life they still be there to hold on the pain to bear it together with me, not leaving me alone. I’m am grateful to have such a beautiful family.

♥

2010-02-13T02:56:00.002+08:00

Babygirls, you stay on my mind

2010-02-10T04:58:00.000+08:00

Laughter is an instant vacation

The planning was less than a month and it’s already verified by now which only perform at the end of next month. I don’t really like vacations. I much prefer an occasional day off when I don’t feel like functioning. When I’m confronted with a whole week in which I’ve nothing to do but enjoy myself, I do not know where to begin. To me, enjoyment comes fleetingly and unheralded; I cannot determinedly enjoy myself for a whole week at a time. Then I thought a getaway will do well for me.

Genting and Party at Kuala Lumpur.

2010-02-08T03:34:00.003+08:00

A new turn in your world

Happy birthday, Raida ♥

2010-02-07T03:53:00.007+08:00

So free we seem, so fettered fast we are

Even with everything going on behind the scenes, I’m quite informed about surroundings. Currently, the only thing I can do to calm advantage is to be myself, optimistic much. So long since most of you have seen me, soon I promise with an enhanced update.

Weekends really past so fast, didn’t even feel the time pass on the clock. Nothing but every moment was well spent with the family. Though, somehow we do have issues in life but Saturday was a chill out for the family at East Coast after dinner. Continue by today's afternoon enjoying the gentle wind at Labrador Park, where the guys were focusing on fishing while the ladies plan for a jog.

It was short and sweet however; I can’t wait for next week because of the long weekends to come, not to take pleasure in much but I’ll guarantee for another great time with the loves. We are just so near to one another, the connections.

2010-02-04T15:54:00.006+08:00

No more, teenage

Happy birthday, Wahidah ♥

2010-02-01T05:05:00.003+08:00

February, I’m in ♥ with you

Suicidal much, for the intense that perks on me. Aftermath, I assure that I’ll be at the back of beyond. Yet, fortune repeatedly is on my side with golden opportunities. At time, edginess it’s not to be practice but forbearance pays it off. Bottom line, what really matters is whether I’ve accept the consequences but if I’ve become who I can’t be that’s all because of you *Evil grin*.

Well said, my remembrances are now unmarked, starting with a fresh which I’ll mark later on. Feels that you come too quickly that I barely think of a moment I had with the previous but then again was just praying for the next one to come fast. Before long, I’m require to draw nearer with some errands that I’ve not done for quite some time. Then only the amusing part takes over.

2010-01-31T00:00:00.001+08:00

Better late than never

Time to slow down your pace in life and start looking around for better things around you. To be honest, I’m leading a peaceful life now. All the memories in the past will just remain as footprints for the rest of my living and in the near future, a sign of things to come. I smile today, hoping for a greater day tomorrow because I want to enjoy each day like I never before. As I grew older, things changed, not drastically but unhurriedly. I’ve learned to see situation in a different dimension instead of making it dreadful try to see reasons of why it’s coming.

Then

Never I thought ones that old day will end, it really did. Those moments were so joyful together at the beginning, everyone’s attention were so focus on one thing that nobody can actually relate to the finale of the story. Like movies, there’s episode – In episode, there’s a flow of account – We can no way foretell the outlook. While fairy tales always have happy ending, what about reality?

Now

As quote by Alice Walker: Expect nothing, live frugally on surprise. Guess that life’s really full of revelation, when it come we just don’t know how to handle but as time passes by, blink of an eye, we just know it at our finger tips. Doesn’t it impress?

Life’s too short

Forget the bad, remember the good. No point fighting the forces of change. To allow people who are only in it for them to have free rent in my life, I’m done with them. Or even to my daily doings, parts and parcel to make mistakes. In actual fact, life’s too short for hatred. The least we could do is to thank Allah for what we have. At the end of the day, I’ve only myself to blame. Forgive to be forgiven.

Too the fullest.

2010-01-25T05:16:00.001+08:00

Officially an adult

Happy birthday pretty cousin, Nad ♥

2010-01-01T17:37:00.008+08:00

To everyone on the other side of the world, how's 2010 looking?

So how was your New Year celebrated? Mine was splendid accompanied by Apit and Waney with some other familiar faces around. Although, some mishap ensue that night, it reflects on me and I'm responsible for it. I apologise to my two babies for what had occurred. 13 Tequila shots, was drunk like a fuck, gone by the wind. That was so dim-witted to really wasted the party time with the snap of my fingers. Eventually, we did have fun together.

May 2010 be bless.

2009-12-30T02:17:00.007+08:00

Hello 2010, Goodbye 2009

Life is a journey to seek for happiness
And also to lose the other happiness at the same time
In life we can’t always get all that we want
Life is about to determine your choice
Or don’t have any choices at all

2009-12-29T00:26:00.002+08:00

Now recall when was the last time we met girls? Gosh! Probably year ago? Yes a year ago to be accurate. So we all have already agreed to meet up on a fine Tuesday with the initially plan of watching a movie cum lunch, secondly to Hort Park but sadly it was a rainy day as a result we settle for an unpunctually lunch plus catching up session together at Vivo. The three of us were expressing on how much we miss each other and muse over the about the past. It was a good day.

2009-12-28T23:35:00.001+08:00

With the family ♥

2009-12-27T17:39:00.004+08:00

To the East side today.

Knew it, Sezairi :) Beyond proud of him because we were in the same alumni before. Congrats!

I did not catch the show as I was with Nad, we shared our problems together as usual, she is the one who can really understands me, thank you sister.

Tell you what, the both of them, Sezairi and Sylvia, did fantastic, if possible I want the two of them to win.

But certainly I show my great support for Sezairi and to those haters, so sorry, it just proves thats his talent is way better.

2009-12-26T01:20:00.005+08:00

And because my daily post needs somethings a little random - I really miss Hong Kong :(

2009-12-25T01:49:00.007+08:00

Oh to start off with, I would like to wish Merry Christmas to all who are celebrating this wonderful festival. Feeling lethargic the whole day but my time was well spent with the family at granny’s house. Basically, we were watching IP Man over pizzas. Two thumbs up for that movie for sure, I did not catch it on the release date so there I am being an outmoded. Anyway, at about 10 plus the family packed up and ready to go home while I met Khan around my area - 5 hours of talking, most about the KL trip to be presume on June, hopefully *fingers crossed* and will be resting at home later.

Time check: 4.30am.
Date check: 26 December.

Haha! Okay bye ♥

2009-12-24T16:52:00.001+08:00

Eve of Christmas and public is on half day. There goes the family outing for a late lunch plus collection of my birthday gift from the family and Charco for dinner. I am down with fever again, I feel very weak nowadays but put that away because I think I am in love with my new HP :) A mixture of touch screen and keypad is just ideal for me. I like the feeling of having buttons to press, not just a touch screen the new LG chocolate bl20 – pink and white.

2009-12-23T23:39:00.000+08:00

Exactly one week ago, as informed, my JB trip was actually postponed to another date. The whole thing, to be preplan again and in view of the fact that everyone is free today, the four of us make our way there. It was a sweet and simple trip - Lunch, Santau, Shopping and Dinner.

2009-12-22T12:52:00.002+08:00

Khan’s idea to watch Avatar with Nad and I, also a birthday treat from him. Typically, before I watched a movie, it is a habit to check out the trailer and tell you what - Cousin and I seriously thought that was beyond nonsensical film. Then again it was a birthday treat from him and furthermore we are watching it in 3D, I for sure do not want to give it a miss.

After 161 minutes, it totally changed my mind – Avatar was beyond EPIC!

2009-12-21T23:32:00.003+08:00

Impromptu get together with the secondary friends till 6 in the morning, I was clueless that the rest are coming. Thus, here goes the story: I was suppose to see Raidah and Caah at 7 in the evening but they were super late then I decided to hang out with Khan and Nad to kill time. I received a call later at 11-ish from Caah saying that they have reached. We find a spot to settle down, I was told to close my eyes and suddenly heard VROOM. I swear, I shouted at the top of my lungs, it was Indra and Zahidah on the bike, oh my fucking god, I truly miss these kids. The brownie was sugary, undeniably made tears roll down, I was so touched.

2009-12-20T23:57:00.002+08:00

On a happier note: The number just increased and one is no longer at the front to accompany the rest from now on, it is two to be precise.

2009-12-19T00:34:00.000+08:00

The countdown to my birthday, a little surprise at the doorstep from Yat and Nad. I actually foresee it coming as this cousin of mine reminded me a few times not to open the door until she called me. It was so sweet of the both of them, cupcakes lighted up and I know that my cousin was trying her best to make me happy on my special day, she always do :)

Birthday song sang by Izuan - So sweet.

2009-12-18T12:27:00.002+08:00

Today’s date was just right since it is nearing my birthday date. Yati and I had a deal to party together during our term break despite that the both of us were sick on that day, we still make the effort to make it happened.

A few misfortunes takes place before the party starts but in the end we had fun the whole night long. Apparently to be my advanced birthday party, thank you so much for who attended the occasion, it was effing fun partying that nighttime.

The hangover - You're so hot stuff.

2009-12-17T23:42:00.000+08:00

Babygirls thank you for the advanced celebration - I love you girls ♥

2009-12-16T23:08:00.001+08:00

JB trip was postpone but indeed today was just another perfect day :)

2009-12-15T11:57:00.001+08:00

Although it was a bit too late to catch this film we girls really want to experience the two thumbs up movie that everyone have been talking about. I definitely agreed with the rest that the show was 10/10 surely. Ida, Yati and I met up in Town for dinner and a movie date together; though it was a last minute plan the three of us still make it. I was super excited to meet up with the girls because I miss them so much, sad that Yana could not attend the outing. Initially, we cannot make up our mind on which movie to watch but after much consideration, we still would want to watch Ninja Assassin without any regrets.

2009-12-14T18:44:00.000+08:00

Before she goes to work, we met up for awhile since I was bored at home. After she left for work, I went home to watch Indonesian movie and have some rest. Then about 7 in the evening received a phone call from Nad saying that she wants to meet me. Therefore I dressed up quickly because she sounded edgy a little and I was worried. True enough, she was stressed and me too.

Later than my mum inform me that the family is going to IMM and West Coast Park. I had to rushed back home and get ready again. Seeing as my dad is tired today hence I offered him to be at the passenger seat and I will be at the driver seat instead.

2009-12-13T16:05:00.000+08:00

When tomorrow starts without me and I am not there to see. If the sun should rise and find your eyes, all filled with tears for me, I wish so much you would not cry, the way you did today, while thinking of the many things, we did not get to say.

2009-12-12T13:12:00.000+08:00

Here I am Sheesha-ing instead of Zouk-ing out.

2009-12-06T22:14:00.000+08:00

A short getaway.

2009-12-05T21:52:00.000+08:00

Unlike other Saturdays today was a little different because something got into me that I was working on my assignment with Wahidah at Nana’s house. Tsk! Cracking up our brains for new suggestions but despondently none came out. The least we could do was to brainstorm everything again and break them into parts sequentially for us to understand it better.

Put that aside, after project I went to meet Izuan somewhere near my place. It was just a chilling session for the both of us. Eventually at 6-ish we make our way home after a long talk. Something odd but lets forget about it because the Lala Land is calling me already.

2009-12-04T01:46:00.000+08:00

Fazlinah is always nagging at me because I am not sure of whether to meet her or not but after an oppression from her, I certain to make her contented by fetching her at City hall with Khan. Khan and I made our way to City hall and I finally know my way there. Haha! We had no idea of where to go but since Marina Barrage was the nearest to City hall then we spend our time hanging out there which is super uninteresting. Next we pampered ourselves with McDonald, packed our food and to Kent Ridge Park, thus called the supper time for us. Given that chance by dad I was suppose to be home around 3 plus but I was behind time to be exact we sent Fir home and reached Bedok about 4.30 am and then Fazlinah. Khan and I only arrive at Gombak about 5-ish. Everyone is safely home - Good morning sunshines.

2009-12-03T14:35:00.001+08:00

First of all, I hate it that I was awaken by the ex boyfriend’s messages. Seven text messages from him and all I replied was “Yes?” Okay that was a bit of a side track before I can post of today’s activities.

The Eclipse at Jurong hill was absolutely beautiful; no doubt at first I told Khan that was a building’s logo and suddenly when it rises up the three of us was like “Wow!” It was wonderful that we actually experienced the moment for awhile. After it disappear, we when exploring the place and tell you what – Was beyond dull, I will definitely not recommend the place to anyone. Tsk!

As our stomachs were already grumpy and it sounded like a frog, so then I decided we should have our late dinner in McDonald's at West Coast. We quickly finished up our photography session and packed up, ready for our next destination.

2009-12-02T12:16:00.001+08:00

Today has been an interesting. As I look back on my day, I cannot help but wonder what this all equals out to. All I can say is that I am feeling up and down about today.

So I woke up very cold this morning. Basically that means our heat was broken. Well, you would think the fact that my house had no heat and that I had to work on a notebook for a class I was sick of, and a lot of errands to run, I would be in a lousy mood, but strangely, I was oddly happy.

That I think is when my night changed. I got back to my house, and sat down to study for my exam tomorrow. Perhaps that is why I suddenly felt a low in my day. And perhaps another reason was because I was hoping for something fun to do a movie, an outing, someone to hang out with.

I guess those are my mixed emotions of the day. I am not quite used to such weird mood changes. I am not that kind of girl, but maybe such thoughts are just part of placing things in my life in line. I guess it is hard to explain. When your mind is focused on something, sometimes you need to step away from it to see what it really means to you. When you step away, sometimes you realize maybe this is more frustrating than anything else. Maybe this is not worth it.

I guess this is kind of vague, but it is still kind of vague to me too. So I guess I will just throw these thoughts out there and hope that something bright or something beautiful transpires from all of this.

2009-12-01T23:11:00.001+08:00

Picture taken at Sungai Buloh.

The three of us had lots of fun during the rounding. It was very funny because Khan actually got to direct me with the steering wheel while Faz direct us with the route to where we suppose to go.

December :)

2009-11-30T14:35:00.001+08:00

This kind of whether just perfect for me to go back to bed.

2009-11-29T14:18:00.002+08:00

The pink and purple affair.

The bride and groom.

The dias.

The dancers.

The desserts.

And us.

Happy new wedd, cousin :)

2009-11-28T12:07:00.004+08:00

Chocolate and card for my dear cousin.

Get well soon pretty :(

2009-11-27T12:04:00.000+08:00

Morning :) TGIF - Hari Raya Haji.

2009-11-26T20:43:00.000+08:00

Rusheila - Fazlinah - Nuradawiyah ♥

Siti Aishah, where were you on that day? Tsk!

2009-11-25T12:08:00.000+08:00

I am in love with someone's boyfriend. Ooh! So am I in trouble for that? Damn. I just cannot control this feeling.

Mr, I love the way you come to me randomly :)

2009-11-24T23:58:00.000+08:00

Family day.

2009-11-23T00:29:00.000+08:00

Hunt for Punjabi suit at Little India with Khan and Naddy was exhausting.

2009-11-15T00:03:00.001+08:00

Every day is a struggle between what they want to do and what they end up doing instead. They can never find that groove, where the habits that make you stronger, healthier, and happier become almost automatic, giving you that feeling so central to a satisfied life: that of making continual progress.

Enjoying every single moment that I have now :)

Therefore, I will be away for awhile.

2009-11-14T16:02:00.000+08:00

We are all grown up. A little bit of catching up with the girls.

2009-11-13T23:21:00.002+08:00

In the morning, my group and I had to attend the HR meeting at the Verge. Now that they thought we got a better idea about their company, we could start on it but they are wrong. We are like WTH, we do not even understand anything and expect us to work on it? Tsk! Put that aside. After that while waiting for Khan and Naddy to come, I had lunch with my groupmates. Was craving for Indian food and I fulfill my stomach.

Fazzy did something major today @#$%^&*. At first I thought -__________- hmm, Haha! I know, you know la b eh. I make a trip to Town to meet her and Fir while again still waiting for that two doctor loves to arrive. Grr! Nevermind. Well, it was shopping time!

Before the two love birds arrive Faz and Fir already make their way to somewhere, so I had to wait a little while for them. Was kind of pissed off but then as usual la, they made me laugh and stuff.

Friday the 13 and that is why the whole theatre blackout in the middle of the movie. Very superstitious right? Haha! 2012 was not what I have expected it to be. I was imagining that the ending of the story, all dead like everyone, not a single one survive but then, Ish! It turns out to be like some fairy tale stories with the happy ending kind of movie. Sheesh! Disappointed pe?

I saw familiar faces just now :)

2009-11-12T22:02:00.000+08:00

I never thought I would be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in and knocked me on my face
Feels like I am in a race but I have already won first place

P.S: Your face :)

2009-11-11T21:35:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Ms Lee.

Nothing much, a birthday surprise with a cake from us to our class advisor. All of us were so excited about it. The lights were off and a birthday song was sung. Thought that counts. We love you, Ms Lee :)

2009-11-10T13:27:00.002+08:00

I am trying to be a cool bitch here. Chee-bye!

Dear diary,
I have a new enemy in my list :)

The new goat in town really makes me want to puke seeing her face that day. Eww! She has short hair and her cheek is full of pimple, it really disgusts me. Perhaps she is confused because she has small boobs and I am laughing out loud because she used to bind it before. She walk like a duck, talk like a parrot and eat like a pig. Enough said.

Simple, if you think you are right in this circumstance then by all means we follow your way. You said that I want to win this, well; this is not a game no more. I will kill you if the day comes and I make sure I will slaughter you like the goats during the Haji month.

Girl, I would like you to note that you are living in denial. It will not make you feel secure but rather living in eeriness. May you be bless by Allah little kiddo.

I pray for your well-being and curse you to death.

2009-11-09T19:37:00.007+08:00

The experience of a lifetime. After so many obstacles, I am now in my comfort zone. Come to realise, it was just time wasting to ponder upon it. I have put everything behind and continue with the future. Nothing else but to put a smile on my face. Life have been awesome for me. To kickstart the whole composition here, I am trying to recall what I have been doing after so long not updating this blog of mine.

Definitely contented because I have been spending more time at home with my dear family. The funny part was; my mum asked “Why you never go out anymore?” Haiz, if I am at home my mum will always asked me that but when I go out she will be like nagging and nagging at me all the time. Things at home are smooth and I enjoy every moment with them. I love my family so much.

Two doctor loves have been hired by me. Hee! Iqbal and Nadia, thank you for the advices. Will obviously listen to the both of you. Glad that now, the three of us are close unlike someone who forgets us and that is Amaar. Grr! I hate him for not remembering us because he is busy with his girlfriend. Menyampah la sangat-sangat. I cannot memorise on how many occasions that I have meet up with Iqbal and Nadia but I absolutely have a great moment each time I met them. And to my cousin, Nadia; I love you no matter what happens. We have gone through a lot of shit and will go through more in the future. I am always here for you. Thank you and I love my doctor loves.

Fazlinah, Aishah, Nuradawiyah. What else can I say about these three babies? They are just so adorable who will always cheer me up. They are my true friend. I do believe that friends come and go but knowing them for almost three years does not affect me with that phrase. Yes, we do bitch behind each others back but that is for good and at the end of the day we know we have each other. I love my babygirls.

Most of you know how much I hate going to school right? But with these girls being around me, my school days positively going to be rock. Now that graduation is nearing, I can feel the sadness running through me. Three years, I have been studying there, so many occurrence come about, no regrets at all. For sure, I love these girls.

And lastly, I would love to have a date with Waney and Apit.

2009-10-28T16:06:00.001+08:00

Party.

2009-10-21T15:54:00.003+08:00

Back soon with a proper update :)

2009-10-20T22:39:00.001+08:00

Bitches, I love you.

2009-10-19T22:26:00.000+08:00

It has been a while since last I talk about my school. Apart from the morning that I have to wake up at six, I think the rest are definitely fine. Three modules these semester which also marks the end of the term meaning I am graduating next year, March. Well, it is a fast journey that suddenly I am ending school so soon. Almost three years in school, I learn so much and enjoy every company I had.

2009-10-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

Sunday was nice.